A peek inside beckas pocket.

It’s okay to be shallow I never hold it against anyone…But if in our relationship you expect the ‘taking beautiful pictures’ all the time and me looking pretty all the time…It’s not going to happen. I won’t always have my makeup on, that makeup which makes me look sooooo ‘pretty’ if you want pretty all the time then..I’m sorry it’s just not going to work out. It sucks but I honestly do not have natural beauty I do need makeup and I know youre used to having someone who cared about their looks and was always photo ready but me….thats just not how I work. I know you want to be a cute couple who can take cute pictures all the time but truth is I wont like more then half the pictures we take and honestly won’t look good in most of them. All I have is my personality but at the end of the day when my makeup is off that…that is what youre with. If you get with me for my looks, because thats one thing you look for in a relationship…wellllll youre going to have a rude wakeup call.

Getting sentimental. Listening to pandora when all of a sudden ‘I see the light’ begins to play. Why you gotta do me like that pandora? Now I’m hugging my pillow craving someones warmth. I want to see tangled, I want to kiss, I want to feel that type of love. I feel like I have the potential to feel it but I won’t give anyone a chance. It’s like when the doctors tell you to not tense up when you are about to get a shot…well…. I’m tense and I can’t shake this feelings. I want to be gentle, loving, and the best girlfriend a guy could have but it’s just so hard…I make it hard on myself yaddayadda I know…And funny enough ‘I won’t say I’m in love’ is the next song… Gotta love disneys pandora station…MESSING WITH MY FEELS.

You promised to give her what she wanted.

Cautiously circling you…You were her prey.. She waited for the perfect moment.

She played you with her I love you’s and her fake affection. 

And when you gave her everything she wanted she grabbed her things and ran.

She was only waiting till she got what you promised.

Is it your fault? To have given her a peak into the future.

Not letting her guess and enjoy the mystery.

You shouldn’t have given her everything she wanted..

You gave her an expiration date and now…..

…. 

Now she’s gone and you’re left with nothing while she has everything….

Do you feel used..

I don’t know why I stopped making movies….I honestly think If I had the right film crew we could make something so great… I used to make movies all the time I had a huge collection on an old computer back when I used to live in La but my dad got rid of it.. Everyday I day dream of scenes and stories. Can anyone relate? I could be on the bus looking out the window and a perfect soundtrack begins to play, the slow motion movements begin and for a moment everyone is in my movie…..

beckaspocket:

Wake up in the morning my first thought is you.

Oh Why am i so hopelessly devoted, to you.

Oh baby how can i take you serious and look you in the eyes when shes right there, By your side. 

Let me go. Set me free. Don’t you see your heart has a good grip on me. Its not me. Im not the one, why do you give me hope and lead me on. Set me free, if its not me cause baby if you don’t, my heart will surely freeze. Its not my imagination running away with me so once again, set me free.

Thank you.